Can't take this anymore!

I QUIT!!! Am I allowed to quit?? ..... NO?!? What do you mean ...NO! I give up. I really do. There has been nothing but fighting alllllll afternoon. I don't care if my kids hate eachother... I really don't, but PLEASE PLEASE for the love of PETE!!!!!!...... leave eachother ALONE! Jessica being here is definitely NOT helping either. She is feeding into Andrew's mean behavior towards Ryan. I'm definitely on the verge of a mental breakdown. I just don't know what else to do. I feel like such a failure. Where did I go wrong? Why am I here? I'm not actually teaching them anything. I really think I'm talking to myself. I've decided parenting isn't for the children to learn and grow..... it's for the PARENTS! It's a test, a trial, if you will. A test that I'm failing with an F-!!!! ARGHHHHHH!!!!! I've tried all the things that I know how to do. I've tried talking I've tried limiting their freedoms..... GRRRR! I know they're bored, but when I let them play outside or in their room then they're MEAN to eachother. I can't be EVERYWHERE at once. I can't be a referee! I don't want to be a referee! I HATE sports! I never signed up for any sport! I signed up to be a mom. A mom who yes has to be firm and strict, but someone who can also be loving and guiding and supportive. Someone who can lead and guide them to make right choices. Not someone who beats her head against the wall on a regular basis! I just want to eat a really LARGE dinner and go to BED! *sigh*



(For those who are sick of reading my rants, I don't blame you. I wouldn't be offended if you don't read my blog. Frankly, I, don't want to read it. The only reason I decided to start doing this on here is because Jim gets sick of hearing me complain and ask for help, so I thought maybe I can start to help myself by writing it all out.)

Planning for summer!!

I can't wait for summer to officially be here. I'm sooo excited to go camping and relax on the beach.


(Hmmm. how the heck to I change the fonts? ...... Oh, and what's the deal with the little Mojikan guy? Why is he pulling his eye down like that? It's kinda gross LOL)

Should've been cleaning.....

Well, I just wasted a good solid 2 hour nap on eating lunch and playing around with this blog. LOL I should've been cleaning, and of course Ashlynn just woke up, so now I must go. (Though, she is preoccupied with Barney right now :D ) Well, I hope you enjoy my new widgets!

3 New Gospel Questions/Thoughts.......

1. In Genesis 4:3-6 Why was the Lord happy with Abels sacrifice and not happy with Cain's? (This is probably an easy question, but the answer eludes me at the moment)


2. Genesis 4:14-15 These scriptures say that the Lord marked Cain so that everyone who finds him will kill him, BUT those who kill him will have "vengence taken on him sevenfold." I'm kind of confused by this. Any thoughts would be great. :D

3. (This is more of an observation that a question) Compare Genesis 1:26-27 and Genesis 5:3 How can anyone argue that Heavenly Father doesn't have a body of flesh and bone. If Adam's children were made in his "likeness and after his image" and we were made inHeavenly Father and Jesus' "image and after their likeness" doesn't it stand to reason that we are the same?

BTW this stems from a book I found in the library in town. In the kids section there was a book titled "Does God Have a Big Toe?" So I opened the book, curious to see what it said, and to my HORROR (LOL) it said "no, God doesn't have a big toe." So I should send this to the author of that book! LOL

The scriptures answer EVERYTHING.....

Copied from other post.....
My First Question......

This question is gospel based.

Assuming that the Garden of Eden was in Missouri, USA (which has been declared by Latter-day Revelation) ........

How come we've never seen the tree of life, the tree of the knowledge of good and evil or all of the other things that were there? If the answer is that they were all washed away in the Great Flood, then.... How did the altar that Adam prayed upon survive the flood?



OK, I might have found it. Assuming the information that I found is accurate, and let's say that the altar is still there (If I read the website correctly) I have found the answer in the scriptures as to why it might still be there, but the trees and the Garden are not.

Genesis 7:4 (In regards to the flood) - For yet seven days. and I will cause it to rain upon the earth forty days and forty nights; and every LIVING subsatnce that I have made will I destroy from off the face of the earth.

I love it when I find answers in the scriptures. :D

My First Question......

This question is gospel based.

Assuming that the Garden of Eden was in Missouri, USA (which has been declared by Latter-day Revelation) ........

How come we've never seen the tree of life, the tree of the knowledge of good and evil or all of the other things that were there? If the answer is that they were all washed away in the Great Flood, then.... How did the altar that Adam prayed upon survive the flood?

Starting Yet Another Blog!

Here we go again..... I was beginning to feel a little left out because as time passes more and more of my friends have blogs. I'm a terrible writer, and that's a huge part of the reason that I don't continue with any of the blogs that I've started in the past. But I've now decided that you will all just have to deal with my terrible grammer if you want to read the madness that goes on in my head. :D

I will have various posts on here, some may be good experiences, some will be questions that I have that I don't have answers for , and probably the majority of them will be ranting and whining about things that I need to get out. So if you have a weak stomach for those of us who whine and complain then this is definately not the blog for you! ;)

I must say that overall life isn't too bad, but I definately have my moments of being totally overwhelmed, especially with 3 young children. Lately I've had more of these moments than I care to admit, though from what those around me have said it's written all over my face. :\

I now try very hard to get through the bad times, because as I've gotten to the ripe old age of 27 :O I've learned that you will ALWAYS come out the other side. Even when you think things are the worst they've ever been and it seems like all hope is lost there is ALWAYS a "light at the end of the tunnel" (so to speak).

All I ask of you as you read this blog is that you try to keep your judgement to yourself. I know that not everyone will agree with or even like all of the things that I have to say, but as I make every effort to respect you and your shortcomings I would ask you to extend the same courtesy to me. I am not perfect, probably as far from it as you can get, but I try, and that is all I can do. I can try my best and try to learn from my mistakes. Unfortunately sometimes that means I have hurt other people in the process, and for that I am truely sorry. I hope that I will have the chance if not in this life then after to fix all that I have broken, right all that I've wronged and lift all those I have torn down.